No Control

I had many plans with you for our future.
I had taken you for granted to participate in my plan, to be with me in my future.
But HE did not like that I had taken you granted.
Obviously! You were not my property. I had only rented you from HIM.
I paid the rent every day. Sometimes by suffering physically. Sometimes mentally.
I had to pay the rent for some unknown happiness HE has given to me by loosing you back to HIM.
Now the joy floats around me like hollow soap bubble in sunshine, flaunting its little rainbow which when I touch, everything is poof all gone...!!

Traitor

Golden sky line in the evening poured your memories on me.. Again..
Pretty flowers in my book unhanded the sweet fragrance.. Again...
Holding it in with palms my mind took a deep breath.. Again.. to live the memories.. Again..
I don't know How many miles, how many relations, how many feelings I passed behind
and appeared again in your eyes.. In front of your eyes..
Neither anyone could notice nor you..
My mind who crossed many words, many boundaries can not be blamed.
How can I say to it that you are the traitor?

I won't follow

I saw the Sun and couldn't tell its religion.

 

There were crows on the tree I couldn't find a Muslim crow or a Hindu crow or a Christian one.

 

There were days when I was so close to the earth and  a crystal raindrop used to be as pure as my heart.

 

There were days when there was present neither the religion nor its followers.

 

There was a day when all of it started.

 

Everything that has a start also borns with a moment living in future with which it will end for sure.

 

Your religion had borned some day and some day it will die for sure.

 

Still you are so eager to slit my throat because I do not want to follow you and your  God..

The fight

Face the fate,
with head held high..
Fate should be ashamed,
Not you and I..
There won't be answers,
so don't ask why..
Defeat the destiny,
till you say last goodbye..

Journy

Ears are no more friends with me, neither the eyes,
I chose to be alone, for rest of the skies..
I walked with you till here, with my hand in your hand,
A wave wiped our castle, which was made only of sand..

Circle

HE told me that I am special.

HE told me that HE will always take care of me.

I believed HIM like everybody else did..

I worshiped HIM every day..

I prayed HIM every night..

Everything was going fine.

There were sorrows but far away. They were not touching me and I knew the reason.

There was HE who was keeping me safe.. like all others who worshiped him..

Then a day came.

I came to know that it was a lie.

I was surrounded by a demons of the sorrows. I got terrified. I ran into him and started crying and started begging HIM.

I asked him to take care of me.. And what I saw was unbelievable..

He was laughing loudly. All the demons were his friends standing and laughing besides him.

He said.. “This is it! I gave you all the happiness because I could have something to take back..

You would not be aware of sorrows and pain then if I haven’t had given happiness to you first. This is what I enjoy..

This is why I created you.. Now its time to die..”

I closed my eyes with load of broken soul..

I don’t know how much time passed away when I opened my eyes.

Again I felt special..

HE told me that HE will always take care of me.

A lie

Some lies are dipped into the sugar and decorated inside the

golden wrapper. When you eat them you trust the hand that made

them. You find them very sweet and inviting.

 

Then you become addict of eating those sweets but deep inside

you are unaware of the fact that you are getting slow poisoned.

 

Even the person who is making sweets is unaware of the fact.

If he had had given you the bitter truth at first you would

have never eaten it.

 

It would not be able to cut the life vein deep inside your heart. You would have just thrown it away.

Yes but the person offering the truth would not have been in your life then....

Belief

I wonder where the belief went.
It used to live deep inside my mind. I had wrapped it with my warm heartbeats and kept it safe.
One day a storm came.
It brought suffocating wind and thousands of thorns.
It digged every inch of my mind.
The warm cover was teared down and my belief sank away. I don't know where.
If it comes back to me I promiss to give it a place in my heart.
But there is so much wear and tear that I know, I will never be able to hold it again.
That is why.. I don't belive you..
I don't belive anyone..

GOD never cries

When you dropped a rain pearl from the sky, you knew I was thirsty.
Thirsty to drink the green earth by my eyes. Thirsty to feel the moist earth by my hand..
Thirsty to hug the wet rainbow..
You also know what my mind is thirsty for but you never drop a golden pearl from your eye.
You know that if you do, I will not need you more. You will not be you after that.
That pearl would wash all my sins, all my sorrows and all my happiness..
That is the reason you never cry..